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With A Pinch Of Salt

2010-08-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

ultimate love

2010-08-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great

2010-08-04T02:13:00.001+08:00

i tell myself: things must only get better.

without school activities i think i'll be depressed. need some life.

2010-07-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

hi i really forgot that i had a blog. i've been really busy recently because of all the things i signed up for.

omg i went for ftb run3 already but they still want me to go run4? i hate camps and i dont like to stayover but this camp is compulsory. ok lets not talk about this. academic talk tomorrow, dont really know what's it about since the talk is about 3 hours? full of fluff.

should i stick stickers on my laptop?

i have no friends from asoc ): no one to bid with is quite sad!

2010-07-23T00:13:00.001+08:00

i know it isn't easy to start conversations with someone new. probably less than a month old of friendship/acquaintenceship (?) i know i need to learn some social skills in this area cus sometimes it gets freaking awkward and i know the signal when i'm supposed to be the one doing the talking (and i hate it?) cus the other person isnt responding the way you want them to. but i like to be the one who's doing less of the initiating. and then i'll start to do more of the talking and it will start to be a proper conversation.

so i appreciate the people who initiate conversations with me because i know maybe 2 that has progressed to everyday fbchats/small talks. i like it. i like funny people i like small talk. i really like it. that's the way i roll.

:D :D :D :D wide smiley for you cus i luv my phone. betcha think i'm lag but my phone is clean of scratches and i know i was a little apprehensive about it but naoz i amz notz. bb chao bang (chinese)! YESSA!

Quick updates

2010-07-22T00:49:00.001+08:00

hi babies, just a little update

i've been attending camps (ok only 2, coming 3) and getting to know new people. it's not really my thing but i totally want to foresee myself enjoying my school term once school officially begins. it's kind of a big change for me because location different and everybody's coming from different backgrounds it's a little hard to blend in. to be honest i feel quite out of place la. but i totally appreciate the people who try to help me integrate properly hahaha! i can't integrate properly what is this man.

i dont know if i'm really looking forward to school or not but i'm just hoping for the best. not studying for about close to 9 months, it's really going to be hard for my brain to warm up to new information, especially since all are new concepts and the teachers are not going to be as dedicated i guess? not teachers anyway, profs!!!

for now i just wanna enjoy all the little sweet beginnings hopefully it's going to be the tip of the iceberg (?)

on a sidenote, i feel like going on a holiday again. CANADA!!! can't wait to get a new phone and laptop. yay to excuses to getting new devices.

bf has been busy and has zero time for me and neither do i have for him. i dont know how things are going to end up but still going to be hopeful. (this whole entry is full of hope)

hope all's good for you. (hope again)

2010-07-19T22:52:00.001+08:00

too busy to even blog please.

2010-07-10T23:49:00.001+08:00

very sad.

2010-07-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

i want to start blogshop but scared fail and no time. been wanting to do it since long ago but no confidence. my boss like pro. i not cut out to do business i think.

2010-07-06T14:48:00.000+08:00

first free weekday i've had since ages. gosh i really needed it because i was working every single day (xcept sunday) since... a very long time ago. i'm trying to diet once again, but i'm eating lots of snacks but less meals i dont know if it's working.

watching cougar town now. oh my blog is so boring you wish you never knew this space.

i know once i start school, i'll want my holidays back again. exemption test on sat, dread. scared fail!

2010-07-03T14:11:00.003+08:00

(fuckyeahslightlyamusing.tumblr)

2010-06-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

did you know that KOI (bubbletea) is DOU if you tilt it 90deg anticlockwise?

a meme

2010-06-29T11:17:00.004+08:00

I can touch my nose with my tongue.
I’ve kissed someone 2+ years older than me.
In the past week, I’ve done something my parents hate.
I’m a terrible liar.
I hate talking on the phone.
I have a text from someone .
I like love in my inbox.
I have feelings for someone who doesn’t know.
I’ve cheated on someone.
I’ve thought about cheating on someone.
I’ve been the person someone cheated with.
I could’ve been the person someone cheated with.
I have a dog, and I love him/her.
I have my own car.
I would trade my left pinky for a car.
I know how to play guitar.
I hate when people I am hanging out with talk on the phone.
I’ve hung up on someone in the middle of a conversation.
I’m good at keeping friends.
I’ve lost a friend over a boy/girl.
I’ve read all the Twilight books.
I’ve smoked weed.
I’ve smoked cigarettes.
I think weed should be legal.
I wish I was somewhere else right now.
I’ve worn the opposite sex’s clothes in the past week.
It’s easy to make me smile.
I believe everything happens for a reason.
I can say the alphabet backwards without stopping to think.
I want to be a photographer.
I know I’ll be successful in life.
You have been told ‘I love you’ by someone today
You have been told by someone who’s not family
You slept in your own bed last night
You regret kissing the last person you kissed
You enjoyed your last kiss
You are wearing a necklace right now
You are wearing something red
You are wearing something purple
Your phone is fully charged
You wonder what will happen when you die
You are afraid of the dark
Smoking weed is one of your favourite things to do
Twitter is stupid in your opinion
You are currently thirsty
I’m seeing my boyfriend tonight.
This week has been good.
I have to work tomorrow
I argue with my mom more than anyone I know
I’m home alone
I’m not using a laptop right now.
I’ve eaten in the last hour.
I have a PostSecret book.
I’ve researched depression on the internet before.
I love cookies!
My boyfriend is a vegetarian.
Protruding hip and collar bones are attractive to me.
My garage door is green.
I’ve woken up with a song already stuck in my head.
I’ve recently found out that someone is attracted to me.
I’m not a big fan of PDA.
My mom loves lighting candles.
Sometimes I feel like I’m more related to my friends than my family.
I’m afraid of change.
I love ‘Telephone’ by Lady Gaga and Beyonce
I have three cats.
I really should watch more films.
Pretty much all I’ve done today is sit on my ass.
I like to quote song lyrics.
I can do Sudoku.
I love getting all dressed up.
I watch the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show every year.
I have no regrets.
Before going to sleep at night, I think about things that I would like to happen.

saw this meme from shirleengoh.livejournal.com (hello!) and decided to try. okay going for dental soon then give tuition l8er.

2010-06-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

phew so relieved. for a moment (or a week) i thought my future was ruined. phew phew phew.

you know that feeling? that relief? it's great.

2010-06-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

hi babies i wanna go canada to play with you! that includes ethan brendan ryan evan kate and baby joel!

2010-06-22T10:31:00.002+08:00

colleague love, wish you were here with me now jamie!

being alone in the office sux

my two cents worth

2010-06-21T14:02:00.002+08:00

i just went to buy fishball noodles. i asked him to give me less noodles and more minced meat. the guy frowned and said, "how can less noodles be compensated for more minced meat? doesnt make sense what right"

then i was thinking, but i use money to buy noodles, two different categories but they are still tradable what. can't be i give you noodles and you give me your noodles right?

Cambodia

2010-06-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

3D2N mindblowing trip to cambodia. my life has changed ever since. everything here is only temporary. made new friends like hannah, jade, tim, tihhung, shannah, sarah, abs, joseph, clarence, fay, ruth. so i learnt to be contented with my life and i'm not asking for anything but safety and for the people around me to be healthy.

we visited 3 orphanages, interacted with countless kids, all of them having some kind of history/problem. some of them were HIV Positive. Such life changing experiences really make me feel so sorry and sad. Cambodia isn't really a safe place to be in. On one of the days that we ended late for the teaching sessions to the uni students, 2 of them got kidnapped and were asked for a ransom of US$30. Seriously, you'd think it wont happen but i was told you can get someone killed just by offering US$100.

We can only be glad that we were born in Singapore at the right time (not during war periods or whatever) because we went to the Khmer Rouge museum where the torturing took place and there was a strong sense of heaviness that could be felt (i had headaches and i'm not usually sensitive to such stuff). over 200 000 people were killed and they couldn't commit suicide and could only wait for death. Seriously i dont know what would become of me if i were born in Cambodia during that period of time. Probably dead and non-christian. So i feel really good to live in good times like right now (not that it's gonna last).

I want to convert the whole world before the second coming i know it's going to be hard but i will try my best. Learn to be contented that's all i can say. I will always be praying for Cambodia and the little kids over there.

2010-06-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

hi hi i leaving for cambodia tmrw 5d4n by the time i come back he will be out and about already. haha he field camp i mission trip hand in hand brave through the storm haha.

i come back with pictures. bye bye. be good.

chioest

2010-06-11T02:29:00.004+08:00

2010-06-10T12:38:00.001+08:00

in the end i bought two other books. of the two, one is a self help book, to teach how to read literature like a professor hahaha. at the store there was a particular guy like me, searching for the right book. haha as i roamed about he picked up all the same books as me. so funny. just something worth mentioning.

should i cut my hair again today? oh dilemma. just like the dilemma i had with iphone and bb bold, but different cus now i know i want iphone 4 yeeeaahhhh :O)

pyramid

2010-06-08T13:49:00.005+08:00

I am at the office right now. My blog has collected a lot of dust over the days. Meeting jerline later on i wanna see her whiteberry mmhmm! Anyway hpbd to me. 19 years old already, i feel... just the same. Haha which is good. Don't want to look so mature also. I look like a kid. I dont know why all of a sudden I'm start the beginning letter of the sentence with a caps. Maybe because I'm 19 already. haha so tiring to caps and uncaps i shall revert back.

1 i am still looking for the book Sputnik Sweetheart, i dont really wanna go and buy because i know i wont finish reading. i haven't finished reading any book every since twilight (omg so childish) Can lend?
2 i love twitter. i wonder what's so nice about twitter. the font? i think so.
3 i like yellow, yellow's a soft colour :O) big nose smiley i likey!

2010-06-03T23:15:00.001+08:00

dont shift to tumblr. pretty pictures are pretty pictures but after awhile it gets boring because there are too many pretty pictures it never ends. words are really better than pictures. i like words. i dont like pictures anymore. i really like twitter but it feels like nobody gives a damn. i cant find any interesting blogs to read anymore.

quarrel. but still looking forward to the weekend. that's the thing about ns men. cannot deprive them of happiness nor make them sad because they already are ): but how about the girls leh? haha.

does anyone have the book norwegian wood or sputnik sweetheart? can you lend it to me? I want to read. & i dont know anybody who's going to the same school or course as me. i dont even know what my course requires me to do. i hope i dont make the wrong choice!

need to shop! jasmine i choose you!

2010-06-03T18:06:00.004+08:00

Dear LIM SHI XUAN, REBECCA,

Congratulations on your admission to SMU.

As you would have read from the matriculation website, CORE006 Academic Writing is a foundation course for incoming freshmen. Based on your admission data in the General Paper (GP)/Knowledge & Inquiry (KI), you are eligible to take the Academic Writing Exemption Test. This is a written test conducted by the Centre for English Communication (CEC) to assess the writing competency of incoming freshmen who scored 'B' or 'B3' in their 'A' level GP or KI.

The registration period is from 4 June 2010, 9am to 12 June 2010, 2pm.

If you pass the Exemption Test, you will be exempted from CORE006 Academic Writing. If you do not register for or fail the Exemption Test, you will be automatically enrolled in CORE006 Academic Writing classes in AY 2010-11.

Seriously smu? I put in my best effort for GP and now you want to assess me again. FML

with twitter i think i can stop blogging. everyone should have twitter go go go! @gooddaylight follow me sheeps!

2010-06-03T11:39:00.003+08:00

JUNE IS HERE!

2010-06-02T19:39:00.001+08:00

i am totally busy til uni officially starts. i'm at his house now. don't know why i'm always here. maybe it's because it's the closest feeling i can get to seeing him. haha happy 1 year anniversary, tan! time flies, doesnt even feel like one year.

i gotta exercise man, i shall swim everyday from next week onwards. hazel, finally meet you after so long! anw, most of the time i'm alone so my thoughts are, where're you? haha. i think where's joan, where's maple, where's jasmine, where's jade, where's jerline, where's kereen (i know where lynette is!) haha but so senseless so sms and ask them. machiam a very creepy stalker. i miss all my friends.

somebody diver's gold sia not the normal nafa gold. so proud but also not me haha!

i love june, my fav month of the year (apart from nov and dec)

oh yeah yeah yeah!

2010-05-31T17:42:00.003+08:00

2010-05-31T01:38:00.003+08:00

harro. i am fine now. it was a 2hr emo phase which resulted in swollen eyes the next day. when i entered korean class i wanted to hide my face so badly haha. we r fine now, i am back to normal. i wonder when is the day we will end up breaking up. people are normally only interested in the start (the get together) and the end (the breakup) haha. i wonder what reason it will be because of and how it will end up. not talking? treating each other like strangers? or will i become his bestfriend? if you ask me i'm the kind once we break up i wont talk to you ever again but he told me smth i couldnt agree more. how can two people who know so much about each other suddenly stop talking and treat each other like strangers? for the record this is my longest relationship and i know nuts about long term relationships and endings.

1 tmrw i have invigilation at mj. i wonder what i should wear.
2 i dont know what's appropriate to mention in blogs anymore it's weird
3 i am very honoured to get to know his side of friends haha. can add to my list of friends which is extremely short, can use one hand to count.
4 i dont know if i make a good friend or i'm supposed to be a stand alone. what benefits can i give?
5 maple i not emo sia, please show me your funny face soonkueh!
6 joan joan can you bake fruit tarts and cupcakes and sweetened cereal for me? pls?

you

2010-05-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

this week you came back and i felt different. i didnt feel excited to see you anymore, felt like you're no longer the person i once loved, felt no attraction or need to reply you or anything you say to me. is something changing? am i changing? are you changing? and i feel bad. what's wrong with me now?

then i think about the times we used to have, the pictures we took last time, the experiences we shared. i miss you. to be honest i'm fucking lonely. everybody thinks i'm strong, i myself think i'm less dependent on you now. but damn it sometimes i just need you to be here with me on random weekdays. but you. are. not. here. who can i talk to? your night calls are only enough for me to check how you are doing. you tell me about you you you. what about me. where am i? am i lost? am i forgotten? do i not exist?

i miss my weekdays with you. i miss mondays tuesdays wednesdays thursdays fridays with you. i want that back. i want you back. i want to live. i dont want to keep myself busy so that i can forget that you are not with me. i want you. i know i cant. what can i do?

i hope this is just a phase. i really love you and want this to last. my heart is breaking.

Back where we last started

2010-05-26T02:45:00.002+08:00

this happened to be on my desktop

omg my neck so scary!

this half year has been freaking amazing for me. blow kisses to everybody who contributed (hoo!)

things change. you changed. i changed. we've all changed. just hope it's for the better. i love my family, my friends, my life, my boyfriend. Thank God seriously. If not another day is just a cloudy day, thank God.

2010-05-24T10:58:00.002+08:00

ice cream chef is hiring! haha need to go back and work awhile then take my long forgotten pay.

in greenpoppies now. come visit me? (:

2010-05-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

i hope it ends well for you, i wish you all the best! (: jyjy (wow cliche)

update update update

2010-05-23T01:39:00.001+08:00

ok i'm on a mission to lose weight (again). uni starts in 2 & half months hopefully i get slimmer by then. ken got to book out. turns out no confinement at all but i know it's a sooner or later thing haha. i've been feeling super guilty cus i never go church cus i want to accompany him cus he only has 2 days to spare. but this week i've decided to go (:

anw this coming week is going to fly fast for me again. mon tues half of wed greenpoppies. tues driving, friday vesak day i'm going to USS with my mum and bro! from now til uni starts life's gonna be a rollercoaster cus i have everything planned out. this 31st, 28 june - 8 july invigilate at mjc. 14-18 june cambodia 12-15 july orientation. in between are the days i work i guess. to be honest i dont know why she wanna hire 2 people when one is enough. but it's good for me also, on the days i cant jamie can take over (: and i passed my FTT so i want to quickly chiong my driving lessons. if can twice a week, before uni starts i can drive already omg can you imagine me driving to sch everyday? before you know it, i'll be attending uni already. i dont look old enough!!

will do smth abt my hair color and length.

ps i really wish i can stayover at your house every weekend. time never seems enough but hey, we're approaching our first year already! i really hope to see more to come.

2010-05-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

i have one friend on my msn list his nick is like this
ilvoesnsd! - who dont lvoe snsd you must be michyeo

michyeo is crazy in korean. try saying that aloud haha.

wow that's a shocker

2010-05-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

WTF CONFINEMENT FOR 7 WEEKS. girls who have army boys as their boyfriend please treasure your every fucking weekend

K: hey you wanna break with me?

R: huh

K: i confined for 7 weeks

R: then ok lor break.

if i spent my recess time peeking at you, lessons thinking about you, looking at you from afar in LT during math chem and econs for almost 1 yr 6 months, what is 7 weeks?

you want details i give you details

2010-05-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

nth much has been happening. told you my life resumes haha i just continue to work at greenpoppies everyday but it's fun. i have half a week of off this week so later on i'm planning to go ken's house to accompany his grandparents and eat dinner there cus i asked his grandfather to whip up smth nice for me and he said ok! haha then take the this free etrial test thing pingchong helped him download on his com. then go over to my mum's church later. tmrw going to interview for invigilation then maybe facial and study ftt. then friday ftt and book traffic police if i pass and then wait for ken to quickly book out. saturday korean lesson then work at greenpoppies. wow i tell you my whole week what i doing, todo.sg haha

next month i'm going cambodia for about 4 days and make friends with people my age. life changing. i have a feeling i wont be able to survive the food and the sleeping conditions. to be honest i dont know cambodia is how developing/developed? haha within half a year in 2010 i go 3 countries omg spend money like water! feel like going to canada for the road trip to USA with my cousins. i love canada shit but air tix always expensive i wish i can go there every year ): i also wish to study there but there are a lot of things in sg i cannot put down. haha i dont have a lot of friends here so i can leave without much worries. but my family and bf here might as well stay here. canada is really fun. everyone should go there once.

i dont know if i should be excited about uni life. everybody's going ntu i also wanna follow but dont want to follow you all travel haha. smu sounds really stressful it's like mjc all over again haha. your week like how?

HK in Film

2010-05-17T20:42:00.005+08:00

HK in film!

can you see H&M? haha you must be wondering what's the white white thing. i tell you a secret, i got bad habit, i like to hold tissue paper in my hand and crush in and i hold it for a very long time. so the white white thing, highest probability is tissue paper eeee!

supposed to take the softie ice cream truck together with our ice cream, sigh but the most prominent thing in the photo is the stupid ice cream. we might as well dont be in the picture siah!

this is seriously the nicest photo i have, stanley market! and the clearest and brightest

the white white thing this time is my plastic bag

electric bus! and maple's :O face ahah

aiyoyo what is the policeman doing?

hong kong people all happy

maple candid liang popo

finally i appear in front of the cam! if you realise i keep taking their backs, nobody take me ):

aww so sweet!

joan says "i need to buy 500g of ginger for my mother"

my arm like dharsim, you know street fighter? hooga!

333 behind, joan say the 333 notebook. i say look like 313! you go focus on the bus right?

we use chow tai fook as landmark to our hotel then we lost. cus hk got chao alot of chow tai fook everywhere

eh uncle, my basic theory test book tell me say cannot ride in the x box leh

i never stand inside the x box!

haiz maple one more time ah

maple tour guide

maple looking at news stand.

why we hei hei de

joan joan's back!

joan evolve to maple

aiyoyo ylykdat

CAN YOU SEE OUR DA PAO XIAO PAO SHOPPING BAGS!

woots!

(x posted to filmsg)

this set is a well taken and well developed film, i go develop to pictures.
maple and joan you want? want msg me (: lucky we didn't go bangkok hor!

i liked kenneth ever since he entered school, probably my whole jc life. but in the midst of all these, there was a sidekick. in my opinion i think i hurt him in the process because i knew that the person i wanted to be with in the end was ken. i chanced upon your fb just now then i thought to myself, whoa you so good looking now! i hope you have a girlfriend (: but then i suddenly remembered the past when i accidentally stabbed him when i could've stopped myself. had i not been so enthusiastic about talking to you on msn, talking to you about funny things and things we have in common (sports haha abit err now) we wouldn't end up in this state. not that this state is really bad lah but i'm thinking maybe i could've prevented all of it. but i wish you all the best, hope you find a very very very good girlfriend who will stay by your side and you will love with all your heart and she loves you back all the same.

Do you remember all of the times we had?

2010-05-16T23:30:00.004+08:00

ok today i will blog about hk and some pictures of my army boy

Day 1

Early morning woke up at 430, picked joan from bus stop, go to airport. checked in, go to mac. surprise surprise saw serene & yumin first then cynthia came along. coincidentally same flight, what are the odds right. then after we crossed the border, maple said she lost her phone, put in the toilet. then we omg omg omg. but in the end her freaking hp was in her back pocket not funny at all we super nervous! so we were back to travel mode. boarded the plane, sleep for 4 hrs, reached hk airport, eat with s, c, y then part to go to our different hotels! we were sneaky sneaky about our check in at the hotel cus we said room for 2 but in actual fact is room for 3 so we managed to scam them successfully!

haha me and joan totally jaywalked leaving maple in the middle of the road with her luggage so poor thing so i snap it down for remembrance.

i want to complain, maple like to make all the funny faces for me to rebut and say no this face cmi. hahaha this picture she looking at the hk ez link card. try to find a description, surprised? hahaha i wished my face can be more v shaped

see maple again, wahlau!! joan demure, good!!!

haiz maple again. maple i know you will read this. pls reflect.

sorry i know it's not in chronological manner. but after we put our bags at the hotel we went to eat brunch. maple ordered something yummy, look at the picture. she looks really happy with her food ya?

once maple was done with her food i told her. "maple, not say i wanna say. but your food just now, look like someone HAACHOO then got phlegm and mucus all over the rice." hahahhahaha but she said it was nice. one very brave girl, salute salute!

didn't really take photos after that cus we were too busy TRYING to shop. You know people all say, Ladies Street can shop. omg no i think evolve already!! now they sell things like nail clippers, towels, shades, elephant trunk thongs. we totally never buy anything from ladies street and super disappointed and sad!

Day 2

breakie!

must explain: maple is holding imaginary fork but not looking at food.

we went to h&m then stanley mkt then tungchung

Day 3

No pictures on digi cam cus i was using my film cameras. we went to lomography store then causeway bay. we were at balibar again. but this time i little more tipsy. also, we bought gay magazine hahahaa.

we got traumatized

Day 4

only on the last day i bought a significant amount of things. who would've thought that the best shopping place would be the street just next to my hotel (bluff you lah it's quiet a far walk) we tasted good food and good desserts and had a good shopping experience. i spent all my money, not even a single coin!

hahaha to the funny faces. maple liang po po.

i make maple a normal girl (: then that was it. we flew back to sg and lead our lives the same way we did. just that with more clothes! haha. to be honest i really didn't shop a lot, and the food wasn't all that fantastic. i think we just didn't put in enough effort to research and look for good food and good shopping. lucky for us, cynthia lent us their itinerary if not we sure die!! thanks thanks. anw i really appreciate that joan and maple accompany me to hk cus they both go before and we very chong dong-ly booked tickets to bangkok and wasted some of our money. i really happy during the trip we keep eating. happy anot our trip successful!!!

i'm seriously too lazy to update all the photos on fb. seriously, how can anyone survive taking so many pictures and uploading them at so many places? i have reduced to a couch potato oh no. haha.

anw, kenneth booked out twice already. everytime i see him i get so excited. you know in the past i used to be a super superficial person. not that i have changed drastically, but now i think looks dont matter so much anymore. the same botak boy now is the same boy i fell head over heels with in mjc. we are inseparable, i think people who knw us wont believe we're behaving like that. dont think it's a good thing, will change will change.

people say we look alike. you think? i don't kid you, he really looks better in real life and less awkward haha. in fact, he loos like ironman to the max his shoulder broad like !!! and his six pacs are like even more !!!!!

once again, i wanna lose weight. sch is starting. i am smu kid.

2010-05-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

i hardly buy stuff online but seriously the maxi dress i bought is sooo pretty even though i really have to alter it cus i'm not tall enough. but once altered, i think it's gonna be my favourite dress.

this week is gonna zoom past fast, like i said. tmrw, i'm having my very first driving lesson at 830am then rush to work at Green Poppies. End work at 6, eat dinner and pack my luggage. sleep for awhile, wake up at 330am to get ready to go to airport check in then take a flight to hk then spend 4 days over there, come back meet kenneth.

anw surprise surprise, kenneth came out 10 days after he enlisted, on a friday. lucky bastard, everybody gets confined for at least two weeks or more but he gets to come out earlier.

brace yourself for a very very picture spam post! wa can't wait. joan and maple are you ready!

2010-05-06T23:32:00.001+08:00

when it comes to buying things i'm super stingy. i don't shop a lot don't eat expensive food. but it's mother's day and the only gift i gave my mum two years ago was Birkenstock slips so since i'm earning, but not much, i bought her something good this year, Burberry watch. i feel so filial. anyway i can't wait for saturday, it feels like i'm just living for saturday.

time's passing so slowly. can't wait for orientation and sch to start. jasmine, let's go buy chio stationeries! i bought some fancy pens and stickers online, spent some half a hundred - for some pens and stickers holy smokes. can't wait to start driving, to go HK next week! sad that i'm paying everything by myself but i secretly think my mum will pay me back cus she heartpain! this half a month is gonna whizz past quickly.

i enjoy my job. i think at this age as long as we're happy with what we're doing it's all that matters. haha but i think i want to go back mjc to do invigilation, like fun. shall take a few days off just to do that if i get it. do nothing, walk around day & dream can collect money cool.

today my father gave me 15 dollars. then when i saw the currency i got a shock. Hong kong dollars, convert = about S$2.50. hahah!

miss my brother, he gets confined together with the recruits poor thing. when he gets back i'll be in hk. my mum says she's sad that she wont get to see him on mother's day.

blogging gets really boring.

2010-05-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

i keep saying this week will pass quickly but suddenly, time is passing so slowly. i don't want you to suffer inside. can you come out for awhile? 5min also can pls? sigh. oh no, why the sudden moodswing? 10min ago i was happy. screw ns. why singapore so small. why everybody cannot just promise world peace so nobody have to defend anybody everybody just happy with each other?

2010-05-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

sad that i won't be working with you at the same time anymore ): better to have someone around. anw i think this is the best photo cus we took it sneakily when my boss' door was closed and it was the only photo that we were photo-ready! actually i wanna take a picture with hazel too but so awkward? haha. i think my camera clear again!! today i went to cdc to take my pdl and i queued for 2 long hrs i wanted to scold someone! so i should be able to start learning soon, whoa can't wait man! i miss k a lot, and he's going through a lot of hardship and all i can do is give him moral support and mushy messages. i never do this kinda things before, first time srsly hahaha! i think if you read our inbox you'll go, huh you two is this kind one? jokertype. ok i shall end here! can't wait for saturday when i can see botaktannedboy, aww!

i'm still here

2010-05-02T01:50:00.003+08:00

Aww i miss you eating mcspicy double, miss your toned arms.
i miss you entirely!!!!

this is my work place, having a sale so come down (: had breakfast with my boss that day (i hate milk but that was the only thing i had to make the cornflakes soft) i didn't feel full so i made hot choc and dipped sugar biscuits in it. ok i shall post random photos now, you caption it in your head?

one of the few last photos we took together. anyway, my neighbour who lives above me is his bunkmate, the world is small indeed! ok, this is an improvement right? ever since i bought a new camera i didnt post my photos. i love my compact kamera! so clear for a compact! takes good night shots (:

looking forward to 8 May (first book out, how come so fast can come out is it a scam i'm super skeptical) and 11 May where me joan and maple fly off to HK to shop shop shop and spa spa spa when we don't even know where to shop and shop. and the three of us not even in sync!!! travel buddies, can we be more telephathic (?) not aiyer!

i've been talking self shots recently but it only shows one thing. that i'm a very lonely girl with nobody to take photos with! but before that i took some photos with jasmine! this was when i still had some long frizzy hair.

last time someone said i always smile the same way. i think it's true haha. i just can't show my teeth lah! enough for tonight. need to get rid of black roots. time quickly pass so i can earn more money, buy more clothes, go uni, buy laptop buy hp! anw i'm in the iphonevsbb grp, can someone help? i knw i lag i knw. i didn't need my cardreader after all, thanks to joan and maple (when we were discussing about our hk trip) when they said, you can connect your cam to com thru cable! and that was all i needed (:

2010-04-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

my cardreader's spoilt so i can't upload photos but it's okay.

all i can say and all that's on my mind is, i wish you were here, feels empty without you it's all void. we never treasure what we have until we lose it. i am at my lowest but i'm going to be independent haha.

but in my cardreader i have good photos, when i upload you see okay?

2010-04-28T15:55:00.001+08:00

i cut my hair short short short
he enlisted
i'm very sad and lonely

that's all folks/i dont know what else to say maybe just some emo post coming up

2010-04-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

2010-04-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

this morning my mum woke me up too early and started shouting "if you dont wake up now i'm going to leave without you" so i quickly bathed showered, found clothes wear never dry hair then step out. In the lift i saw my reflection omg I AM A JOKE! i was wearing a purple top with a beige jacket and grey leggings with pink slippers. clown of the day.

1 oh no everybody POP already you still haven't enlist!

2 oh (shit) no i never received any letters
(only stupid letters like, "congrats on your first ibanking experience!")

3 oh no i have no time to do anything.

but yes i love my freaking job! i am xinfukuaile123. Can't wait to go uni to have a @ntu.com.sg/@nus.com.sg/@smu.com.sg haha or an @insertsschname.edu.sg. can't wait to dye my hair again, get new stationeries, handphone, bag, laptop. Sigh but no letters!!!!

2010-04-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

when you dont get it, and everybody starts posting that they got it, it seems like their gloating ):

2010-04-07T02:53:00.004+08:00

i want a belly piercing but i know it will hurt so bad so i don't want a belly piercing. i'm willing to pay so much more for a painless belly piercing. scadee (sp?) cat, thumbs down for me. but i really want a belly piercing. but will pain ): but i really want.... you know that kind of dilemma? truth is, i will never have a belly piercing, cus it's just painful. i also want to slim down, but slim down very hard so i can't slim down, i'm willing to pay money for a guaranteed forever slim package. truth is, i will never be skinny, cus i am just bahbah. hahahaha this post is amusing. i will never be skinny hahahah

i am currently jobless but going to have job soon. i just hope time will quickly pass, i'm slacking and wasting time like nobody's business! i am happier because i have all the things i need and all the things i want. my life now is just so perfect. not your kind of perfect but my kind of perfect.

i like this new highlight background thing.

2010-03-30T00:03:00.005+08:00

i know i'm not supposed to feel the sadness yet, but it has kicked in already. less than one month from now you will enlist into a place that's going to be horror of the horrors

i believe there are two kinds of girlfriends, one is the kind of girlfriend who tells her girlfriends about her boyfriend, another is the kind of girlfriend who tells her boyfriend about her girlfriends. yeah, you guessed it right im' girlfriend number 2. i dont know which is the correct girlfriend to be, but i prefer number 2. boy, for some reason it's just that boy friends make better friends than girl friends do. maybe they're more ignorant about the small things that happen and don't take things to heart. maybe that's why i prefer guy friends (not that i have them though) and now, i'm dating a guy who's my best friend, a guy who is closer to me than all my girlfriends (i still love you all)

to be a little more specific, i've not only been brought closer to my boyfriend, i got brought closer to an entire family which is really heartwrenching. maybe i find happiness in your family in places i can't find in mine, and i'm always happy to go to your place where there's full of people, welcoming me with open arms, taking care of me, making sure that i get food to eat (home cooked!). it's not that i don't get that in my family, it's just that things are done differently, and i love it just the way it is.

today i cried for a different reason. not because of petty fights, but because i realise that you're soon going to leave me. going to forsake me and leave me alone to face the world and i know for sure i'm not going to be able to handle it. to start with i don't even have a lot of friends and i tend to do things the wrong way, don't know how to take care of myself in times of danger and can't handle rejection/criticism from friends around me. you were the one who was always going to be there to talk to me maturely about how to handle things properly, and soon you're going to leave me on my own to do all these without guidance. now how am i going to do that?

and everything will be different on that very day you leave me, there'll be nobody to send me home, nobody to make sure i sit in the inner seat in buses or get a place to lean on the MRTs, nobody for me to pick a fight and throw my tamper, nobody to call/sms, to play uno and reversi and chinese chess, to accompany me to do all the small things like prepare for interview, study tgt, get my ears pierced, eat with, buy ice cream/yanyan. you're leaving me on my own. nobody to hug me before i take the lift home, nobody to help me make my indecisive decisions. nobody to show my korean mvs with. nobody to pick me up from all kinds of work no matter how far it is.

and today you told me, "you're not going to like the person i'm going to be, you're going to be angry when i spend my weekends with my friends and say i don't spend enough time with you, you're going to be sad that there's nobody to accompany you or send you back. i'm going to be botak, dirty, tired, smelly. you're not going to like me anymore" and then you reminded me the possibility of breaking up. now i can't handle all of that.

for now, i will need to gear myself for what is to come. to treasure the remaining time we have left. i love seeing you, seeing you watch tv, seeing you do things. i love your side view, love your front view, love your high nose bridge, love your big arms, love your skinny legs, love your slippers, love how we share our friends, love your home, love your family, love how you do things and treat things, love how you smile when i smile when we're in the midst of a very serious quarrel, love how you told me if i go canada you'll be depressed and of course, i love how you love me.

you changed my whole world from the day i saw you, and now you're still changing my life. i love you baby, and i'll love how we used to be. even if we go separate ways, i'll keep you in a secret place in my heart. you're the boyfriend that puts all my fake boyfriends to shame. definitely the best boyfriend anyone can find.

and i love how you don't read my blog so you'll never know that said all these things. i still love you.

Countdown: 29 Days.

2010-03-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

i say you go clubbing ok, but in my heart it's screaming, "no of course it's not ok!!!!" :'(

a level results

2010-03-04T23:48:00.002+08:00

i must make a promise to myself that no matter what happens, i will not cry tmrw.

lights camera action

2010-02-24T00:25:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna keep my fringe sideways from now. i dont know what to do with my black roots, dont know what to do with my hair colour, i wanna keep it but wanna try another colour at the same time. i'm so busy i think i'm going to fall sick soon. even if i dont, i want to. results coming, i really dont know how i should be feeling.

ps, hey baby, i love you like crazy.

kaaap

2010-02-21T23:46:00.001+08:00

back from thailand! i think i'm fatter already, eat shop eat shop sleep massage! luckily there's a weighing machine at the hotel lobby so i check that i don't gain too much :) anyway i'm too tired, will be soooooo busy this week. next week cousin and nephew and nieces coming!! (BUT A LEVELS RESULTS COMING!!) omg my life so hectic, hyperventilate. AND I'M NOT EVEN MAKING A LOT. Anyway we talked about army life today, and i think i'm going to be so left out when he's gone, heart pain and tears and whatever. i need a reason to be happy man. i am so much more than this.

wow i'm alive

2010-02-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes i myself forget that i have a blog. haha, anw angbao money turned out to be unexpectedly much more than previous years. also because i went to his house so i got much much much more. i'm thinking whether angbao money is supposed to be saved (kept in the savings bank) or to be spent (kept in my disposable income account) ohwell, either way, it's still not enough to pay for the things i wanna buy. 2 expensive things and i swear i won't ask for more sia. going to thailand tmrw, i'm so sick of shopping already maybe just go there to massage massage massage. til the 21st, see you again forgotten land.

2010-02-08T01:48:00.002+08:00

kill me now i feel so dejected. i can't earn enough to pay for what i want to buy ): my angbao money is so little also. i can't even earn enough to continue surviving. you feel me? you feel me?

jiggy

2010-02-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

0:19-0:22 kan, handsome boy!!! hahaha my new motivation. i like guys who look like this. during my secondary school days when i used to receive tuition for math, i had a classmate who looked smth like that and i had a strong infatuation for him (but he has/had a really bad reputation). oh man, i'm such a korean junkie!!

time after time

2010-01-31T03:57:00.001+08:00

this should probably be the best time of my life, letting it slip right past my fingers since i have plenty to waste. during this break, i've

a. been to canada
b. shopped a lot (understatement!!!!)
c. been to the zoo
d. worked at ice cream chef
e. seen shinee at the airport did you? hahahaha!!!
f. shopped more
g. started swimming more often
h. accepted job offers with good pay (but got played out afterward stupid bintan)
i. gotten two ear piercings

shinee in sg, i'm very excited but i working and i think they're not interested in our country. (really makes me wonder how's it like to be a star) anyway my cousin from canada's bringing her family to sg so i'm really excited to see them during the wedding and afterwards. shall bring the kids to eat some ice cream yay! i really don't know why i'm so happy, maybe because i bought lots of stuff online. but i believe everything goes back to equilibrium, so does it mean my a lvl results are going to suck like hell? no, please no!

flutter in the heart

2010-01-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

hi i'm still in sg haha the people played us out so i'm jobless for four days and have no plans but it's okay we're free from sandfly bites, scorching sun and an ugly tan. anyway got another piercing today i think i'm done with 2-2, seems impossible (low threshold for pain zz) to pierce another one cus my ear's so small. i think it's something commendable in 2010 for me.

sucks that now i've left school and have started working, my mother assumes that everything that i buy should be paid for by myself. so allowance, transport, stuff i buy eats into all the money i have which sucks. and i keep shopping nonstop. now i'm just craving for a phone and a camera and maybe a pair of spectacles. should stop spending, but it's impossible!! lucky for me i'll be at the icecreamchefs almost everyday for beginning of feb before i leave for thailand. legs ache again, so long.

i got an owwie

2010-01-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

i know it's no biggie, but i finally got the guts to pierce one side!! haha i'm really paranoid and stiff right now, not a big fan of needles and pain. feels like i've conquered mount everest, but actually nobody notices that small thing stud on my ear haha. 2-1 or 3-2? hmm. like how my cousins say to their kids, you will get owwie. i got an owwie!

busy as a bee

2010-01-25T01:14:00.002+08:00

i have many jobs right on hand right now. today was ice cream day. i got really nervous when the shop was filled my face will turn quite very red, really unprofessional but i got better after awhile. anw in a few days i'll be at bintan for 4 days, exactly like the sec3 student leader camp i attended (with the same instructors!!) i think it's good money, plus i get to exercise, climb mountains and spend some time with my friend & boyfriend. i'm going to be really busy this week so no blogging. hopefully i earn enough to buy a present for myself and him. ok legs ache, gotta go. take care. i miss canada once again haha! i really don't mind studying uni there :)

2010-01-16T01:09:00.001+08:00

go figure

2010-01-14T06:04:00.004+08:00

hi early birds, it's 6:00am in the morning. What does this tell you?

it doesn't tell you that i woke up early.
it tells you once again, i have i-insomnia.

job job job job job. no job.

caution: might cause dizziness

2010-01-10T17:25:00.014+08:00

playing wii super mario bros

kate loves to climb stairs

naughty ethan

we bought so much sweets in bulk

haha, the usualz

trying to show how heavy our basket was

ditto

this is my uncle. he knows very well that baby ryan only wants grandpa to carry. but he like to PURPOSELY ask me to carry so when he tries to hand baby ryan over to me, baby ryan will (naturally) turn away and cry/whine & then he'll tell the me, "oh, baby want me only. don't want jie jie" then i'm left, dejected. he does that about, 2 times a day. other than that, he's really nice to us haha.

one stone kill two birds

at the airport already

mum with the kids

canada brings back so much memories for me. the next time i go there, we'll see how much they change. unlucky for me i don't get to see the process ): anyway, we were really well taken care of and i'm very grateful for that. accommodation as well as food and travel was all covered by them. we owe them one. i'm kinda sad that alan can't come over to sg because he didn't do his ns. still, i think they're better off there. i wanna go over again, but maybe next/nextnext year?

tighten your seatbelt

2010-01-10T04:57:00.000+08:00

insomnia again. i think i know what's the cause. i can't find a job. so i keep thinking about it. it's 4:50am, good luck to me. i need to earn some money, it looks like i'm on my own now. my parents, not. giving. me. money. my brother simply decides to forgo everything in sg and leave to take some pilot course in canada. mum says tighten belts. so i suffer the consequence? nice one. so i really need a job. save me man. anw you're gone the first day and i miss you already.

soldier

2010-01-09T14:20:00.001+08:00

i wish i had the ability to save all guys from doing/completing ns.

zoo

2010-01-07T22:45:00.001+08:00

went to the zoo today. reptiles make me disgusted. i'm tired i can sleep early today it's 10:38pm. ever since i've been back from canada, i find myself sleeping early and waking up earlier. it's a good thing. goodnight world, get some beauty sleep. my black roots are showing and i don't know what to do with it.

starts with T

2010-01-05T09:30:00.001+08:00

i bought tootsie rolls for everybody i know haha. glad to be back in sg but it doesn't feel like 2010 for me maybe because i didn't celebrate here. next festive season, cny i won't be in singapore yet again. need to find a job with good pay. so lazy to update all the photos, so busy anyway do that some other time. need to meet up so many people! also, i bought myself a tamagotchi hahaha.

happy new year

2009-12-30T17:20:00.000+08:00

zzz i wish i could be in sg to celebrate new year. i really miss everyone. 4th seems like a very long time away. okay, happy new year everyone. this is the first time i'm away from singapore spending the new year. i'm tired of new year resolutions but this year was definitely a good one (excluding the everyday study part) oh shit that makes me think about results die. alright, 2010 i welcome you with open arms. and new clothings :D

i miss you sia. i suddenly cannot even remember your face/voice. i am a lousy girlfriend. compared to jasmine, the good caring girlfriend (jasmine i msg you when i'm back k please reply promptly)

vancouver

2009-12-24T03:13:00.000+08:00

excited right now i'm in canada already. flight was really tiring but it's better now but i still get tired every now and then. it's freezing cold down over here. the place is fantastic i wanna move over here. my cousin's houses are all big and nice cus their damn rich. I'm scared that i'll gain weight because all we do is sit in the cold, eat more food then sleep. they say when it's cold, you burn calories faster but i doubt that's true. polar bears are really fat right? on the first day in canada, we ate hotpot so i saw every relative of mine living here. they all stay quite close by and it's nice that they take care of us well. we watched avatar today. the chicks here are all hot and the guys handsome. and the stores are really nice? they have this shop called lululemon but the things are quite expensive.

since i'll be here for 12/13 more days, i decided to take photos of the streets here another day. when it gets so cold, you just get lazy carrying the big camera and trying to get it focused. it's christmas soon, and we're having turkey. sounds good right? and my nephews and nieces all believe in santa claus. like what you see in movies, they all have their socks hung up so that their parents will put presents for them. yeah, damn right i like it here. haha but two weeks is enough for me to get sick & tired of this place (or get used to it)

JASMINE I BOUGHT STUFF FOR YOU!! and i miss a lot of people :"(

Untitled

2009-12-19T02:16:00.015+08:00

is curfew a good or a bad thing? seriously, i don't understand why, at the age of 18, i still cannot spend some nights reaching home at 2/3/4 am. i'm not doing anything illegal or whatever. if i can stay out so late, it means that i'm with either a very big group of people, or that i can get transport back because friends can drive. instead, i need to read nasty smses sent by you, come home guiltily and after that still suffer the aftermath. what is this? i don't understand. i'm sensible enough to know what i'm doing. i won't be home so late everyday, but why can't you let me off some nights? seriously, it's getting to me. and i hate having to feel guilty. life sucks with curfews. it totally spoils my day, even if i had fun before i received your sms.

i went for volleyball training from 12-4pm then to primary school bbq. update pictures another day. because your stupid sms spoilt my ENTIRE day.

pictures as promised haha:

from a really long time ago :D

and from yesterday's primary school gathering,

my favourite guy friend in primary school! so macho and big!!

& favourite best friend!

mak kah wai got chopped off hahahaha.

anyway we took neoprints today but no it's too embarrassing to show people ahaha, he can design better than me, okay flying off to canada soon. take care everybody ): i'll be freezing cold. i think i can update from there anyway so no hiatus. but see you in singapore only on 4th jan. i'll miss singapore. goodbye!

insomnia, sucks.

2009-12-17T02:13:00.003+08:00

insomnia is a kind of torture, because while the world is fast asleep, you’re all alone. you and your mind, buzzing with every random thought in the universe. and sometimes the thoughts will reach a standstill, and your mind goes blank. you became more aware of the silence. and it’s during this moment that you realise how alone you are.

i'm still suffering from insomnia.

while trying to sleep i planned my tomorrow:
buy long jon, a pair of sperry, get art materials, buy a shirt, take neoprints, friendship band for ankles and try to work out my expenses (think i'll spend about 300, if i swipe the stupid card my mother will kill me but, what to do i really have no money) it's 2:10 in the morning. i'm scared that i'll only be able to sleep at 6am ): my body clock is screwed.

it's 4:48 now, still awake.

longer list wins

2009-12-15T01:57:00.004+08:00

Sad list ):
if i wanna work as a relief teacher, i have to dye my hair black again.
i have bruises on my hands cus i haven't touched vb since a long time ago
i'm going to canada soon, 16 days
i'll miss singapore (xmas & new year celebrations will be different)
i feel like buying one shirt but i have no money
i think i really lost my itouch and i miss it very much
i haven't been talking to my mum for five days
my hair is attracting bad impressions (?)
my ideal weight is five kg away, it's hard to lose it
i currently have very low self esteem

Happy list :)
maybe going to canada is smth to be happy about (?)
maybe i'll do shopping over there (?)
can see cute cute kids
he's coming back today, finally

lost and insecure, you found me

2009-12-13T00:23:00.004+08:00

haha i look at these pictures of myself and i feel like yawning. standing on the same side in every picture with the same smile. took a couple more photos and that's all i've got. i was quite sad people couldn't recognise me maybe it's my hair. i'm starting to think of changing my hair colour as a mistake. i fb msg ken's sister and she replied "why angry huh... silly girl" i like his sister a lot. but i don't like it when people know i'm angry with him because it makes me feel selfish and petty. z.

anw he's at thailand and i'm going to have to get some company for four days. and i'm going canada next week. time really flies, i keep realising that over and over again. we sort of quarreled before he left i just feel like a very possessive girl. it's not supposed to be like that, i wanna be understanding and different from other girls (so i guess i'm normal) but too bad, he has nothing to show off to. i'm nothing but a normal girl and i tell myself that everyday. also i lost my itouch at home. miserable much.

afterthoughts

2009-12-10T21:59:00.003+08:00

i didn't use my camera to take photos so no photos of prom upload it next time. i enjoyed it so time passed really fast. everybody looked so good. kenneth looked good too, sadly the whole class entered really late if not i think he would've stood a chance! van got nominated, so happy for her she looked rly good! didn't go around taking photos as i intended to so two years of my mjc life, i can only conclude that i know very few people and didn't treasure my last opportunity to at least make some more friends haha. so the next time i walk pass someone i am acquaintance with, am i supposed to say hi? i dont know.

went to chijmes after prom then realised i didn't have keys home so i stayed over at his house and i just reached home. he's going to thailand this sat, i'm quite sad. that's it, i think my life's really boring and i have no intention to spice it up haha. i wonder when's the next time i'm going to see all the meridian people (even if i don't know most) i'll miss you guys and all of you have playing some significant role in my life even if not directly. see you all in the hall during march. this is goodbye suddenly i miss everyone :"(

meridian junior college prom

2009-12-08T11:09:00.002+08:00

grow fringe grow! haha all i hope now is someone doesn't go to prom with the same dress as me. please please fingers x-ed. to be honest, it's good that i went to prom because at least there's something to look forward to. after prom i'll go "now what" then maybe lead my normal lifestyle cause it's tiring to go out everyday and find something to do. i wore heels for a day and i think i hurt my entire leg. but it heals my insomnia i can sleep now. after prom, he goes to thailand i try to find smth to occupy myself then he comes back and i go to canada. i don't really want to leave singapore during x'mas and new year. i have my whole life here <:( anw, hope everyone finds their ideal prom stuff and we can officially say goodbye to each other.

this thing we have could last forever

2009-12-06T01:49:00.007+08:00

i am suffering from severe insomnia and it's taking a toll on my life. nevertheless, i'm had great fun today. stayed at his house again to play facebook games to beat highscores to wait til his dad came home for dinner. ate unhealthy food & i feel bad that they always pay for my share and send us to wherever's convenient. anw, we went searching for prom stuff but no luck. i don't have anything to wear yet so i'm panicking. the highlight was we sat GMAX!! omg everyone should try it. i was feeling a little down and he said hey let's try gmax and i said no i'm scared and the pretty lady with an accent said you'll always be scared and kenneth was mesmerised by what she said and i was jealous but still took the ride it was a blast!! didn't bring my camera but depended on my lousy hp camera. i lost my voice and no, i dont look like a small girl nor a japanese :"(

lights surrounding you

2009-12-05T01:47:00.005+08:00

Been spending time at his house these days because i'm too ashamed to show people my hair it's too shocking even my father can't recognise me. Too many people are cutting bangs and dying their hair now i'm one of them damn. We've been watching Big Bang Theory, taking care of his cousin Abby, reading books and trying to sell my old phones. Doesn't sound much but it's enough to keep me busy. Met up with my seniors yesterday, new moon was great. The company was fun, can't wait to stayover at their hostel before i leave for canada! I think my mum isn't quite happy that i'm hardly home. Need to find prom dress, i don't know where to start. Janice, i need to pass you a lot of my stuff see you this sunday give me wake up call!

to me you're perfect

2009-12-04T02:44:00.002+08:00

Quote: "Not really good w/ words but I wanna dedicate this post to my dearest (best)friend Rebe. gooddaylight gt so many paragraphs abt me now I also must tell the world how much I love you despite all your nonsense, all your gl, how you like to tease me & irritate me even though I don't usually show my unhappiness explicitly. (Haha I still remember I nearly wanted to shout at you last yr during pw cause I buei tahan you) Despite all that I wanna thank you for being my greatest friend, my best bitch, my 24/7 confining partner, my joker buddy 101. So many first times happened cause of you. So many things I nvr once held the courage to tell ANYONE, many things bottled up inside but I find it so easy to tell them all to you like no boundaries.

If I could still remember, there were indeed times of unspoken tension and I knw we both can feel it, but it was quite amazing why we didn't quarrel over it cause we both knw how impt and significant both of us are to each other. I like how we both only understand our own jokes, make retarded noises while walking to the canteen, make stupid recordings while studying, how we both understand each other and there's no need for us to speak but read each other's minds, make me go orchard all the way with you to buy your friends' presents (but I did enjoy), eat dinner at my house we tgt enjoy gd food( only when you come then my mum cook gd food lor she want to action her culinary skills), how we listen to your itouch when we go places and drool over hot Korean guys whilst watching the videos, how you (un)willingly help we open side gate when I'm late, how you always steal my food (LOL), how you squeal and make me get all excited and fuzzy all over(see you knw my weakness) w/ the least effort you make me smile, laugh but at the same time w/ the least effort you piss me off unknowingly.

Despite all tht I still love you deep down, but I think you love me more right? Hahaha. I love you for who you are, you don't have to care much abt wht ppl say, because tht is wht makes you, you. Isn't it? The same Rebecca whom some dislike/ have prejudice against/ unhappy with is the same Rebecca tht never fails to cheer me up when I'm so down, stand by me all this while, if you don't knw her well enough who are you to judge her based on wht you've heard or might have an unpleasant 1st experience with? I don't deny having bad experiences in this friendship but I think we both have learnt to compromise, accept each other's flaws and it is through bad experiences tht our friendship grew even better, even stronger. Rebe hw, you've gained an irreplaceable place in my heart so please don't leave me, we must go to the same uni tgt take the same course, be each other's bridesmaid (I hold your word to it!) I don't this its just luck tht brought us tgt, must be fate/destiny, must be the work of God. I once read a quote somewhere saying that "Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous" ie. Coincidence is nt equals to luck."
--Jasmine

I remembered reading this post when i was at my lowest point. Jasmine, today i'm happy for you because i know how happy you are that this day has arrived. I will make sure that he treats you well and does not bully you. I'll listen to whatever you have to say whenever you want to say something. You always say you're not good with words but look at that freaking para it almost made me cry last time i read it. We can have the same content in econs but you still score higher than me because of the way you phrase things. One talented girl you are, the world has yet to realise your potential. So no matter where we end up, remember you'll always have me who thinks highly of you and you're crucial in my life. Even kenneth knows that whenever we quarrel i'll tell you. So you don't leave me too, and i'll always be here for you. Forever and ever, friends for life haha you one cute pretty photogenic girl i jealous of you!

the end is near

2009-12-02T10:29:00.000+08:00

the day i was happy. brought my camera to school that day but unfortunately i only took with van van. van, do you know that your name is saved as wen rou van van on kenneth's cellphone? haha you're like an angel, during prom remember to look for me i'll pass you your very belated present. i'm happy i got to know you haha! i feel lucky.

let the good times roll

2009-11-29T14:01:00.008+08:00

my exams ends tomorrow. anw the whole week of break was really awesome i was hardly home. went to karaoke twice in less than two days. was there til 2am yesterday and i selectively ate the peanuts that i liked. finally developed photos from holga which turned out not as bad as i expected. bought another toy cam. went for gina's wedding, congratz!

it's going to be life changing for me this dec cus i get new hair colour, new free phone, shop for new clothes, colour nails, learn to put makeup, meetup old friends & canada!! i can't find my cardreader but when i do find it i'll upload the pictures we took on the wedding day. i'm tired and i don't feel like studying physics.

photos don't do us justice, we decided to try again next time. we got tired, even an indian uncle who saw that we were having trouble came to help us. after taking, he went "verrry good!!" we looked at the photo and held our laughter hahaha for the entire day, we just went, VERRY GOOD!!!

it's you

2009-11-25T00:33:00.008+08:00

my love for you, is simple. sometimes i wonder if all other girls are like me, or if am i different. i look at myself and i wonder, why'd you pick me? i'm not a good catch, i can vouch for that i have some serious attitude problem. and despite the brave front and the masks i wear, behind the scenes i'm always feeling insecure and careful because look at the world there're so many other girls waiting for you to pick them. people actually like you. you're everything i'm not. you're straightforward while i hesitate to reject people. what i like, you don't. what i hate, you like. sometimes i even think, if it's a good thing. do we complement, or strongly contrast each other. but above all else, we're strangely similar and that's the thing between us. we can't completely fall out with each other and we hardly fight or argue. we thought otherwise didn't we? it's amazing how God decided to put you in my life and everyday i'm grateful that you're my boyfriend.

still, i am insecure. how do i fill it? i guess this is a problem only i can fix. meanwhile, you're my motivation and you're the only person who can talk sense into me. kool, i finally garnered enough strength to post smth regarding my relationship. took me long enough.

i shot for the sky

2009-11-24T01:56:00.002+08:00

today i saw something amusing. less than forty five minutes after chem mcq i was at east point and i saw a junior college student in uniform doing mani pedi she must have been real excited about starting her social life, with glam nails. haha i've been happier recently maybe because i know that exams are almost over and i don't have to study anymore no need to hold pens nor thinking about if i drop my pen the pen ink will stop flowing out. i think i'll start to apply for driving lessons soon and then maybe sign up for some guitar lessons. i don't know what i want to work as, still. going out tomorrow. it's 2:02am, and i'm not studying triple yes!

Genesis

2009-11-21T10:22:00.006+08:00

good morning, i woke up too early this morning at eight and i couldn't sleep from then on. i'll blog here from now on i remember how i used to be start out with blogger and now i'm back here again. a lvls will end soon i should start replanning what i want to do. meanwhile, i can't wait to leave singapore and go to canada. bet it's cold there and i'm afraid of the cold. prom is coming soon too, i don't know when i'll be able to find the dress i have in mind. good luck to me. anw i've been sad about a lot of stuff and have been pondering about them since forever. i've decided to let go of a friend. what a way to start my first post on blogger on such a sad note. i'll get better.